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doubt assails me

and

I am left dangling

to question my very own

heart's intention

and feeling quite foolish yet again

will I never properly learn

life's most literal lesson

so to further grow into my maturity

fear hordes the life giving water for

my hopeful survival

emotionally I am not so very certain

while another's too attractive water

can carelessly drips upon a bloom that

wilted all too long ago

the thorns though are still in perfect

working order I'll bet

I should attempt to reestablish myself

by planting a lovelier newer and thoroughly

weedless garden

first though

I must carefully search out for bright

magical stimulating new seedlings

hope smiles tiredly upon my decision

as its such an old sight for her to behold

me preparing myself unknowingly to be made

a fool of once more

only this time likely with even greater

debilitating results

as like snowballs they only get bigger once

passed the top of the slope

still

If I do not at least try

hope will turn her fickle back on me

and I shall never be permitted the chance

to stroll in my beautifully tended garden

alone or otherwise

Fate

I pray

watches me from the shadows

and waits patiently

soon she will give my sad plight her

best possible intervention

hope though

bless her match maker's heart

in the mean time

refuses to give up on me

even in my current misery

still, I must admit

its awfully nice knowing

I have such dear friends

in even higher places............

(June 14, 1998)