it has to hurt
though those who actually do not know themselves
first hand
say no, not really
over all
I myself do not fear the overly labeled end
for
to me
it does not represent the end
but more so
another beginning
or perhaps
a coming home again
if you will
the fear in most is more so of
the Great Unknown I suppose
and the dying part of death has to
make even at times the so very faithful
linger somewhat
to pause
but as I grow stronger and deeper in my faith
where actual death itself is concerned
the only real fear I would have now
is of its never coming
Death that is
and that I would be left here
unkindly tucked away
in this far too imperfect shell
forever
that would be the most cruel punishment
from God
but I know I have nothing to fear
God made a contract with us
and anybody who even just thinks he
knows God
knows that he could never go back on his
word
in short
I welcome death
for it brings me one last breath closer
to being enveloped in the spiritual embrace
of God
my life's author and answer always!!............
(May 5, 1998)