THE LONG TRIP UPSTAIRS

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it has to hurt

though those who actually do not know themselves

first hand

say no, not really

over all

I myself do not fear the overly labeled end

for

to me

it does not represent the end

but more so

another beginning

or perhaps

a coming home again

if you will

the fear in most is more so of

the Great Unknown I suppose

and the dying part of death has to

make even at times the so very faithful

linger somewhat

to pause

but as I grow stronger and deeper in my faith

where actual death itself is concerned

the only real fear I would have now

is of its never coming

Death that is

and that I would be left here

unkindly tucked away

in this far too imperfect shell

forever

that would be the most cruel punishment

from God

but I know I have nothing to fear

God made a contract with us

and anybody who even just thinks he

knows God

knows that he could never go back on his

word

in short

I welcome death

for it brings me one last breath closer

to being enveloped in the spiritual embrace

of God

my life's author and answer always!!............

(May 5, 1998)

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