its so much more than just mere vision
yet far less than simple sight
why with the arch of a fearless hand
held out bravely to the so damning past
my heart takes to flight
damn but I loved him
so much so
that unto the grave of his love's
dispassionate eyes
I still so blindingly grieve
for time's intermediate loss
I'm so bloody pathetic
though
that somebody should just shoot me
square between these blind eyes
and give my misery something to
marvel at.......................
(May 2, 1998)