when time is much too quickly taken to task
wise words once spoken aloud are suddenly
much too violently addressed
as if he who had the least courage
almost forced himself to ask
with a quivering small voice full of
overly expressive guess
just where have I left my tongue
in such matters of breached confidence
and why must we constantly bare our nerveless
souls solely to situations much too intense
is there some coded message I seem to be
repeatedly missing
and just how many bruised arms of dignity
am I unknowingly dismissing
where ties the individual to the end person
who sees love not for what it actually is but
what they would dream it to be
and what makes that person this same sort of
soul draped by the curtain of mere physical
matter so very acutely different from me
could it be some unwritten law of subtle
differences perhaps
if so then I am glad I possess these ones that
I have
has she no clue as to how happiness accumulates
and or evolves in the scheme of the long term
trial and or romance
and of course that no one person should willingly
settle for less that of second best
does the bridge that carries the spirit to a
higher form form of hope filled expectation
somehow come to break down in others in terms
of natural need for salving self evaluation
like do people being abused, in the beginning
know that they alone as a person do not for any
reason deserve such treatment so belittling and
violent
or does embarrassment and some gross dysfunction
of the mind prevail to keep them forever silent
though these very things I do not fully nor even
partially understand
still yet shadowed by it all
I try for myself to remain
happy to be just who I am
an A.F.I.A.S.W.I.L.
A Free Intelligently Attached Strong Woman In
Love!
which is something I believe all we women
should aim for.........................
(April 30, 1994 am)