what can I say about my sweet Mama Fred
what have I though maybe not in my
many poems exactly left hanging about
still completely said
well on the subject of lying
she's set against it straight away dead
she believes in God, love and happiness
but not that each and every one of us
were necessarily meant to be wed
you see Madame Fred's sole purpose to her
way of thinking is to be the best possible
loving mother to her four children
as well as it seems
confidant
confessor
father and financial loaner
its a lovingly close but sometimes misplaced
relationship
though I love her more and more as the time
passes
I realize that we are not exactly at all
like each or the other
but she is my one truly deepest human
emotional attachment
a mental mentor of mine if you will
best friend to my spirit
and I'm so terribly lucky to have her
I don't like to think about her eventual
death
but the necessity for future preparation
forces my reluctant mind to consider all
possibilities end
with a stronger by day and ever growing
belief in God its easier to imagine my letting
her go when she dies
because I know that I shall be with her one day
in a far more loving and warm and wonderful
place
happy with all of us at home together again
our true home but this time with Daddy and
Tootsie too
celebrating that life together
alas is forever
until God will see us all through............
(Jan. 21, 1999)