with such levels of Shakespearian outrage
I lash intolerantly back at my so beloved you
distraught by my own self absorbing faults
and quite lengthy it would seem such a list
rather casually careless of your comfort or
readied zeal
am I
for you to shruggingly dismiss all my heatedly
hurled forcefully foul accusations so freely
how can you stand for me to touch you in anyway
at all
your near contagious grin pours much needed
value into this embittered shell of me
even as I personally seem to be sabotaging my
very own soul
you my friend are obviously made of far, far
better stuff than I
its to the point where now in such knowing
I must confess
I cringe
forgive me of my massive idiocy and deep
disrespect
with but a warm whole enveloping hug
you , without even knowing it
challenge me to be
my well behaved better self
in essence
to be more like you
mentor to success in itself
calm, together and far more loving
than even simple necessity can admit to
you are grace in its rarest physical form
true friends like you breath worth
into even the most undeserving souls
and they do so simply because thats what they
love to do most of all
and that my so beloved is you
is what I love most about you
your great ability to love even the least
lovable aspects of me..................
(Jan. 16, 1999)