the anger
when disturbed
evaporates
eventually
time uses her
relentless crowbar
nobody escapes her
raw insistence
though the mystery of
the pain
is not quite revealed yet
still, justice shall prevail
even if only in the afters end
of this
I am ever always certain
quite fixed in my assertion
public and personal
though more so personal
I feel at this searing point
my bludgeon heart deems that
far the more important friends
care and can counter act
abandonment and rejection's
bitter sting
pending disaster is nullified
though hurt deeply
I survived
the mounting shame was flattened
and the insurmountable humiliation
overcame
others in my wary wake
shall rise above themselves
too
to follow suit
self love
the stone builder's of one's core
worth...............
(Jan. 11, 1999)