I conspire with no leisure
when arrows of muse I can not see
I sport no angle for any even calculated confidence
as no ample compromise begs me free
I craftily create so to further cross and bypass
hazards of sly self conflict through a bartered
mirror of lamented excuse
I stand not far yet solemn from where I speak
in this chilly vacuum of disquieting
over draft
I caress my somber soul as if I am weak
as an apparition expels a haunting laugh
while before me barks the anger of an impending
moment of almost unpalatable distaste
my for head begins to worry me
am I slowly being strangled by my own inspired
haste
from where I am right now to where I wish to one
day be
but these blithely blurry visions will just have
to wait but a breath longer
if I wish to grow properly into what the members
of tomorrow's population will likely deem as me
a purpose felt spirit of some solid substance
who chose to brandish a pen that was much stronger
than she.......................
(March 20, 1994 am)