we're all still reeling from the absolute shock
its as if someone played a very cruel trick and
took away my happy little rock
all the innocence has been so completely shattered
everything was destroyed until nothing
could be saved
and as it turned out money was all that really
mattered
tell me how can one person so easily forget all
that another gave
and so generously so in fact
with any even remote form of guilt I do doubt if
she is seriously racked
this will be the painful end
to a pure hear that never really got to begin
a constant unremovable blemish
on a spirit that wished only for a life long
mate
no apology or spoken remorse on this can ever
erase such a twistedly cold tire iron of a
most unfortunate and foul fate
all that is well deserved
will one day to those be perfectly served
for one I truly do believe gets back much of
what one gives, even lies, hate distrust,
abuse and pain
on the dismal downside of even unconditional
love there can be no moderation or gain
I don't hate her God
really I don't
I just truly pity her soul
that is of course if she has one...............
(March 16, 1994 am)