I cry a lot for the wrong reasons
all too lately it seems
lost in the dark to
thoughts that have long since been
banished from my dreams
the precious jewel of one's very
existence has been politely
introduced to my before only lonely
being
and that 'Win some , Lose some!'
attitude has faded far into the back
of my once weary thoughts and now
it is only 'Love plus Jonathan equals
happiness' that I am seeing
I am so blessed and so very truly so
he is the man who will become the
father of my children one day though
this I am sure he does not quite yet
know
its sad to believe
but there are still so many who can not
even begin to conceive
such excitement and happiness that blooms
from these life long plans
he is the only real man who was ever meant
for me so I am all but putty in his massive
yet so very gentle hands
I hope for, even as I somewhat still fear
this gift of chance
that we have together been granted
and I will always pray that we can walk
together unencumbered forever towards the
banks of a life of enlightening love that
is only to become even further enchanted........
(Dec. 17, 1993 am)