the fickle fog slipped silently away
from the night chilled banks of the
Ohio's most eerie stretch of its muddied river
as breaking free of me as well
there came a deep yet
surreptitiously unsurpassed
all over shiver
why my very fear itself from me tried to flee
intensity rapped my raw emotions bare knuckles
while dashing behind my engrossed foolish thoughts
I fancied myself near that to some ancient
Victorian idea of being all a flush and poignantly
a quiver
well, what a dirty snifter full of port that
turned out to be
when in modern fact
I am just a scared little girl
playing in one of mother's many self destructive
moods
self pity
a most punishing little practice
when one is in any such unsettling state of
mind...................
(Sept. 28, 1998)