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he said

you know

I have been looking for you too

for so very long now

and my eyes revealed at last

all the agonizing murder that they

had been living with in my soul

while he slowly drank in for himself

all their incomparable pain

staring deeper and deeper into me

so to better touch all my carefully guarded

truths and make them his very own

then it was all in his eyes too you see

his unbelievably beautiful eyes

carried through many a cherished eternity

I could not look away

I wanted to par take in their ravenous rapture

I was transfixed by their sudden sharing

with me of their joy

such discovery was so incredible that I became

wholely swallowed up by their visual welcome

and accompanying embrace

so indescribably ecstatic was their expressed

delight

I desperately wanted nothing more than to

simply touch his so beloved face

so to connect in even the smallest physical

sense

just to prove to myself that this dearly

prayed for meeting is indeed real and not just

yet another far too lovely dream

that I will all too soon awake from

feeling so very cheated, alone, and disappointed

yet sadly reflective

but reality's day was not to be today

for as my companion to my soul slipped his

slantingly sensuous, unbearably expectant lips

downward at last to meld with my own

thunder cracked its natural whip

killing all too quickly

yet another beautifully much too real dream

so with unstoppable tears racing after my

abandoned heart's rage

I valiantly vow to continue on as never before

in my maddening search

though they hurt so very much still sometimes

these dreams I welcome

as the bring me one hopeful step closer to

mine significant spiritual other's side

so this cold reality on some yet unascertained

level

truly to the soul is but a hazy distorted dream

one from which I shall soon enough wake up

and you will be there with me as always

until then I just have to find a way to calmly

get through and I do so by dedicating

the best of me to these pages

so in the end I can give them all to you............

(Sept. 17, 1998)