paint happiness for me
as I, right now
so desperately need to see it
what does it look like
why, I'll bet its just lovely to behold
how must it seem
like wind dancing across the fiery colors
of purity's perpetual flame
my own dullness within
alights at the very vision
if God granted me three wishes
this very night
I would ask but for
you and me entwined in the perfect dream
How I so ache to touch you again
to simply feel your nearness ever closer
to my very being
I long for the issue of some recognizable
sign that I shall be with you again soon
in whatever the capacity
but in this millisecond of unguarded grief
I think not just right as of yet
for terrible tears and too inexperienced eyes
would prevent me from truly recognizing you
and that would be such a loss to the both of
us
so walk with me again later
when I have grown enough inside to be worthy
of you
this hurts for me to confess
but I know you understand
just as you always have
hush my sweet lonely love
listen with your very soul
our tomorrow is coming
I can almost hear it
skipping through the clutter of years
just as it has always done
it reunites us
when we each least expect it to
as that was our initial request
so never fear
for we both know
that God always keeps his promises
so
until our next crossing in time
good night my love
oh and thank you God
for letting me express these thoughts
to the two of you
sometimes your too good to even be
believed
I love you so!..................
(Sept. 16, 1998)