all my love
intending to spend
with every vibrant, needy fiber of my
startlingly brittle being
beneath a broken heart's cringe
hope flounders only so brilliantly
in a tepid pool of grim realization
at the burdened hands of the sightlessly
condemned
riddled with
so much fear
and futile fascination
mirage
sweet, sweet mirage
sail on
so to anchor me sooner to your magically
elusive mooring's port
a swept up swelling sea cliff up ahead
in a swirling shower storm
of left behind sand
harbors me relentlessly to all these
eccentric thoughts
that I court
I hear them in my dreams
hovering as they hum in my wanted happiness
their song is so sweet
why, I can never seem to sleep
instead
I wonder
almost aimlessly
through constant lists of guess
and long for that of which I can not yet know
the future......
nothing more than a loosely guarded idea of just
what might be.............
(Sept. 14, 1998)