eight acres of a not so simple ecstasy
now stand broad between us
out dating why forever
the harmless camaraderie
we once so easily shared
did we barter something
so terribly precious
solely to purchase that of which
we thought would be so much better
or did we only manage to destroy any
chance we might have had
for what could have been in our subsequent
greed
say for just another hot letter
you tell me
as so far through this incredibly long
wall of tears
I can not seem to see for myself or
otherwise
when quite ironically enough
regrets and hindsight
have hung me out to dry
in such confused shame
I can not help but wonder
how you alone would take reading
these very words
thankfully though
there indeed will come a time
when I won't really care
I am just unable to even imagine that
moment at this very blurred juncture
in time
but that will change
I most assuredly assure you
that will indeed change
as even one's initial emotions
must adapt to the time
if they wish to survive............
(May 28,1999)