in a blaze of bored glory
even the messiest shards
of the ugly bitter truth
came forth
where has all my courage
gotten to
Four Clouds it seems has saddled
the wind
such confusion for me is deeply
disturbing
the demesmerization seems without
end
happen since is but a foul breath of
old vinegar
leaping upon the cucumber's back
to such caving
why I ask
is there no more idle merriment
in even my humor's attack
the feared for edge
has met me at my very own door
I am unable to see the original
focus
from the lingering threat of misplacing
the floor
its just a few hollowed out words
you in short
had quite laughably become
my forged foundation
and in a string of but a few
careless sentences to me
you blew my every last nail, board
and cinder block away
until
'tis naught more now than a bit of
rubble on the ground
my recently expanded reality indeed alas
has shifted
though I will never myself attempt to
repay you such favor
please note though anyway
that it is now I who owes you
a little devastation.............
(May 24, 1999)