sporting a new and darker do
minus that infuriating touch of gray
determination falls limply askew
hope so filled with its own private play
like some form of correction in the aftermath
where only moments before
creation slipped silently from its bath of page
only to then die uninspired upon memory's ill
fated floor
nearly worn from the unplanned trip of dropping
tonight, there rules evidence that my destined
(mis)fortune is quite obviously non-stopping
nor an unflattering fluke by some freak of nature
or means of doubt
but more so a witness to all that I am so
fearlessly about
the shear insanity placed in the pen
puts me at defensive odds with my very own face
and grin
even as I blink I still do not see me in
these unfashioned words of scorn
but a peaceful alien force from within
that has yet let itself be born
so the preparation for that day continues on
with what seems like no apparent end
which guarantees to me that somehow if I am able
to break myself in far enough somewhere down the
less taken road in life I won't have to bend
over backwards or out of shape..............
(Nov. 24, 1993 pm)