a wish is lark's choice
whether natural or otherwise
quite tinny can be
the yet used voice
devout reason
a true marksman's grip
I hear cycles of imminent change
why even in the sparing wind
the breeze for its trouble
only further translates my own
chagrin
I promised myself not so very long ago
that I wouldn't too easily give up nor in
and yet here I stand
envisioning you
beyond the mere mortals reach of love
all warm, fuzzy, alive and brilliantly vivid
in your every breath
what a class less fool I have been
and yet
chance for the moment
hold for me such incredible hope in the
palm of its quiet no non sense hand
and it pays with such prophetic appeal
I have dreamed just of this so often
how can I myself
better explain
so to bind my thoughts
so to you to better them reveal
if one looks long enough
and with enough longing at the
nondescript back of one's most
fervent dream
its image can often become distorted
and it can appear not so much as it is
but rather as one would like it to seem
that in a sense is wishful thinking
examined up close
that is how I saw you and in my rose
colored foolishness
I, in turn allowed you to much too freely
witness my much too overly enlightening
mismanagement of emotional funds
needless to say the crash of '29'
was nothing compared to the black
Saturday's reign of tears you unleashed on
me
the words 'we're just friends'
are now forever etched in my throbbing
sore, embarrassed heart
I played my every conceivable card and lost
forgive me if I took undue advantage of your
simple admiration and respect
I never meant you any discomfort or lingering
regret
wrapped up as I was in my solo longing
too obviously now
I completely misjudged
the 'CHAINS OF your UNDERLYING SENTIMENT'......
(April 11, 1999)