within one breath
of your foolish consent
I buckled before you
only to further humiliate myself
by allowing my heart to over run
my head
what a naive, groveling fool was I
and in that same sad vein of stupidity
I actually expected
you to love me in return
my youth was but an enemy to my cause
yet still such illness in me
speaks so highly of you
which is pretty sad now
isn't it......................
(April 6, 1999)