do you love my bloody shards
aren't they rather pretty
once they are washed
clean is such a vague
yet wanting term
why, some dishes don't even
get the true joys of clean
yet houses of light
clean up the dark alleys
that are forever littered with
homeless spirits
and old renovated buildings
tend to try to pass themselves off
as safe houses for the abused
dwindling focus
oh, how I miss you so!
you remind me more and more of
Heaven
where it seems like I could reach
for you for like ever and ever
and likely never even get to touch
your smallest insignificant pinky
finger
as I am but dust
embracing your every day furniture
such feigned importance
only further argues
with all these so very
argue less doubts
that dispatch a monumental misery
like cookies
handed out freely to the already dead
can you smell the sorrow baking
why do I feel like I've found you
too late
you are the milk I've been longing for
all day to drink
but you act like you are only hours away
from going out of date
oh, how I do so long for your nearness
its almost too unbearable to show
you are Georgia O'keefe
and I am but your most pitiful landscape
who fears you will not paint me
you could make chains themselves
ache for the finest links among the many
shackles in which to better imprison your
patched poignant words
and that's all that I truly have of you
you know
your words
just your beautiful unassuming words
the children in your mind
that's all I'll ever have
shared haunted memories
that cleverly blemish the wants in your
very soul
painting it as a blended masterpiece
made
it would seem
to accompany mine
and now
we both truly know
that we are milelessly blessedly
but quite inexplicably intertwined
oh, how I need you so very much
just to sit and think
while breathing in your scent
to know
that where ever I choose to make my
entrance
your eyes will immediately look for
me in the room
in any room!
and all your beautiful hallways
will call my name to your mind
ever so gently
as I tentatively approach
their carefully manicured stairs
and beg you ever so sweetly
to please turn on your hidden
night light
just for me
so to let my so very weary love come
floating in now
just sit back
with your eyes closed and allow it to
seep ever so warmly into you
like a packaged mystery
of such surreal delight
we've done this so many times before
so, don't let me trip over the end tables
as this isn't the end
this is our middle
and its a good enough place to start
wouldn't you agree
LISTEN!!
the years up ahead
they aren't laughing at us
they are applauding us
why, can't you hear it
its becoming a deafening roar
it sounds like a standing ovation
oh, how I love you so!
Don't you know
only courage attracts true courage
so, what on our heaven's own earth
are we waiting for?
hell to freeze over
or perhaps
January 2001
well, I for one
certainly hope its the
latter of the two...........
(Aug. 14, 1999)