an echo of such
bare bitter delight
crosses such haunted bow
of chatty discontent
there, the dream merchant
spoils for a facsimile of
future trouble
and on any other self
puncturing day
I wouldn't object
but in this latest clinical paragraph
to my broken reckoning's blur
I wrestle with
rather than reconcile to
such deeply jaundiced fact
why not only just mine
but hordes of other's
confused misfortunes
pays his extravagant dues
so some of us chose to exist
without nary even a spare breath
to lose
for each his next moment of certain
confrontation
yet it is we who laugh loudest
when the tears that come to choke
crust up and clog instead
the loveliest portals of our most
tender insides
and to think
you actually believed
I no longer cared
while through the whole entire
foul-soul-letting process
I knew that without you
my paper patched life would
eventually consist of pale almost
emptily written rhymes
dying nightly upon pride less pages
that were already destroyed
by my tears................
(Aug. 12, 1999)