with trembling, pretty mouth
and eyes darting all a quiver
I snatch a wee tiny sip
Grand Dad
had he lived
would have called such defensive action
a fortifying nip
one's silent sustenance
likely for the ruin of his liver
so to shore up my much too shaky courage
and place the betterment of the mind
in the lead seat
a role in life
that I
on my better days
would never to which agree
loners only beget the further meant
of solitude
but fear and self entrapment embezzle from
me
my regular good sense
my intellect's pride
though quite battered at the moment
still is so very thankful that the God
that I so adore
in his great love and forgiveness
holds true to his warrior's heart
I know he fights so very hard for me
and I for such complete loyalty
love him only more
no matter how dark my road may appear
nor how undeserving my callous actions
that go before me proclaim
there are such fantastic but unknown
reasons that we are here
and I am more than the mere small sums
of all my earthly parts
this is but one test
and in the school for the spirit
so many more still remain to be taken
its faith for us all
that shall be the finest tutor...........
(July 9, 1999)