oh
but to be so dizzyingly desired
that is my dream
a man
an unbelievably loving and so very giving
man
who places his great want of me
without caution
into the palm of my trembling open hand
his whole entire heart
mine for the fiery taking
as well as the cherishing
so close to my hungry breast
where is such a man
does he even exist
if only I could locate the key
to unlock such man's deepest needs
he whom I hope just so happens to reside
in my house
and sleep along side my slumberous body
could I quite possibly dream to be that
lucky
I wonder
oh how I have
and do wonder still
so very longingly ..........
(July 2, 1999)