there seems to be
a shake age in the line
marred tenderness marked by
some unfathomable sub climate
I never was anything but
a rare riddle
leashed attraction
a moth eaten muse
you leer at me
in a rage over cold gravy
how embarrassingly slighted
I now feel
as I am but the stale biscuit
that is in love with your cold
lumps
the weary grass in the distance
demands that I study it closely
ignoring the fact that out of
detached vigor
your hand absently caresses the
tray's edge
how beautiful it would feel
to be that tray at this very
precise moment
my uneaten pickle too could only be
just so pleased if that were indeed
my spot to rest my limp green
vegetable spine upon
where as back to now
beyond your joking lust
and far too blaze' attitude
you hardly notice the same old me
it seems I'm not human
I'm just a silly game of
Do I want her?, Do I want her not?
and it seems the nots have it
though I must admit
that demanding grass
only this morning just
freshly mowed
still protects
luckily for me
all my ignored love
and keeps it safe in its
finely landscaped meadow
and away from my deeply preoccupied
and far too serious eyes
quite magically so
such hopeless love
remains ever thus so
quite creatively hidden
out there
no matter how much I might blink
or where I may haphazardly look
abruptly
I rise
and leave you to grumble with your
inferior selection
of food again
entirely too unaware to even be
believed
with brisk efficient movements
I dispose of my own hardly
touched lunch
thinking
cafeterias
are the stupidest places in the
world to fall so dazedly in love
why, I must be out of my tree............
(June 29, 1999)