I miss you so much
I miss how you are with me
I miss feeling so wanted by you
I miss the ability I had to look forward to seeing
you again on Sunday night
I miss your sweet and racy text messages
I even miss all your playful cursing
I miss your calling me your witcho and your constantly
demanding that I give you a kiss
(like you would even have to demand such a thing
if I were standing before you face to face)
I miss your special way of always misspelling
the same words
I miss all of those little things that so uniquely
make you, you
but most of all
I miss knowing that you are safe
and happy and that nobody has hurt you
I miss that almost as much as I miss that
beautiful light of yours that you so generously
shone into my world
I'm having trouble now living without that light
and I ache from all this not knowing
but always
my thoughts
my concern
my prayers
are with you
as far too deeply now
I am 'Feeling Your Loss'.................
(written July 8, 2007 718 am)