the music of my heart
is your unbid able love
its lyrics are your whispered words
I hear your silences
and revel in their pauses
your emotions
how they storm and flood
to make me so aware of me
and this cry of love
where before went unheard
sentiment in its place
is saying simply be
my mind's bitter torment
a branch in your hand
the brimstone of my tangled thoughts
is but Houdini trapped in an inescapable
tank of sweet temptation
struggling within the leather stays
of your own desires enviable corset
you bind me
and drown me
in such sweetly shared need
unapologetic is this
determined want
so fickle is man's usual mussed heart
yet another night of empty longing faces me
without your music
I must somehow endure
strength is a moment
I remember too briefly from my youth
captured in the wake of some slippery
shadowed promise
I pay homage to your freely offered love
as best as I can
in a poem
with such unchoked esteem
that you could deem me
a blind bloody fool
ah, but if I am to be
then please make note
that I wished to be
your blind bloody fool
so, in other words
I offer you
me....................
(Dec. 24, 1999)