disagreements climb to their
lofty heights
only to commit each their own
form of personal suicide
raining ever down
into our backyards
discarded debris
of misinterpreted pain
everywhere
we stand
broken by our own words
flung out in a disbeliever's
hurricane of hurt
and left clinging to the shattered
shards
that embedded into our own
foolish skins
a pound of aching flesh
shed
yet it feels like
half my heart
has been butchered
and given to all the demons
in hell to feed on
I missed you too much
and fell way too low
to even hope to pick myself
back up
without you there to assist
that when you returned commenting
about some silly movie you loved
I became jealous of a character
in that movie
like she was a superior rival for your
affections
cause I ached for you to feel that way
about me so strongly
and that was my stupid crime
that sent everything between us
straight to hell
you deserve better
a more put together sort of soul
not some messed up lonely woman
who feels threatened
by fiction
when she is left alone
to her own devices for far too long
I love you enough to relinquish
my former hold..........................
(Sept. 23, 2009 818 am)