when crushes become painful they are so much harder
to leave behind
while through sad strokes of mean injustice we're tortured
like visions denied to the blind
bound tightly within a circle of solitary circumstance
grown all the more dusty by unintentional neglect
raw from the rigorous out pouring
while blemished by the gain of no actual self respect
what we each eventually manage to do
is not right now the immediate concern and or issue
but just a channel in which to change the speed of the
pain
a way to carry the entire load without actually
'Marrying The Rain'
sometimes it ( the pain) eases its own self for just
a little while
and we can even seem alright at times until a harmless
return of one promise filled flickering smile
and the not so old object of your universe's center
unknowingly knocks you back into your carefully side
stepped repetitive groove
and you're back where you started from
working alone again on an emotion that will likely
never improve..........
( written April 23, 1993 pm)