he hasn't been my father for all my life
he once loved my mother but never made her his wife
his choices were not many in those early days of
proclaimed propriety
one just didn't do things that if admitted would shock
society
but mother and my newly discovered daddy did
and I am a product of their made public indiscretion
a hostile angry kid
at first, I thought it impossible to get close to a father
who is a total stranger
and in my heart at the time I never once guessed that I
was anywhere near to that of being in danger
of loving a kindly old man who suddenly claimed to be
my father out of the proverbial blue
but mother when confronted confirmed her carefully
guarded secret so what else could I do
but believe it as it stands and move on
now, oddly enough for nearly nine months my mother has
been gone
and all that is left by way of a parent is a father I've known
for less than a year
with him saying softly, "daughter, you know we're the only two
we have left" in my ear
he only wants to help, maybe even make a little of it
up to me if he possibly can
I debated about accepting until nearly everyone I spoke to
of him
said, "Ah the Chief now, you can't do much better for he's a damn good man"..............
(written March 29,1993 am)