while riding amazement
in a jar less petulant form
shock mildly mocks
my wide green guileless eyes
utter disbelief
actually sails somewhat softly
into a fractured relief
vaporizing such a revealing heart's
impressive storm
is this a con or merely some vague
perfect truth
there lives no real denial
that I can see in the words
that flash before my avid eyes
contradictably I am stunned
so, I read
I absorb
I process
your tentative yet fearful explanation
as time and careful for thought
is needed here
to process this influx of knowledge
and regroup such bridge from now to
tomorrow
is an ominous swinging shadowy bridge
at best
I just hope what I am feeling animating from
you is genuine emotion
and not some elaborate game
for a bored man's restless amusement
to pursue
as your true cares strength
I fear I just may need
now to help me through
just one request
please
Just don't deceive me further
as that my good man is all I will ever
ask of you....................
(Nov. 24, 1999)