such fleeting grace
a wiser man's last choice
we sneak around guilt's own chair
in the darkened den of your desire
I pound my mind
so restless
that you have labeled such quandary in me
apprehensive maneuvers
I take your nonchalant cues apart
you in turn throw up riddles to back my
gentle seeping into your ransacked soul
I seem to scare the you that hides behind
the facade
you mask with another name
but the sweet, sweet attraction remains
unslipping
you flip flop about in dire attempt to recognize
a door as a door
and not a clever brick wall disguising itself like
before
you flood channels with disassembled information
am I getting to know you or a you, you once were
but really no longer are
I don't believe that even you truly know
your lure is deeply infatuated with my easy ability
to intoxicate
my high, you find addicting
our thoughts are old lovers
they weave you and me into an intricate us we can't
deny
two marriages near ruin
in the ash of our own twisted memories heart ache
even that doesn't seem to matter all that much
anymore
for melded is our souls
a blended essence of a not so neatly swept up fate
bounds us enchantingly together
there for
we strive
to keep what
we've found
in a word or two
each other.........
(Dec. 10, 1999)