welcome to my attic
give me your shaking fingers
feel how my trembling heart palpitates under their
gentle brush
what an erotic beat it makes
touch my chalky cheek
feel how quickly it blisters to bloom
you absorb all my passion for all the involved sakes
the virtual joy of the moment practically fills the
entire room
but it is embarrassment that holds your tender heart
captive in this corner less cove
you find you can not retreat into yourself
( away from me) here
so beneath your anger and bravado instead you defiantly dove
and I find I am once again here all alone
because you chose the gauntlet over me and it broke
when it was foolishly thrown
do you feel afraid now?
you should!
please just leave now and let me cry
as I die just a little more inside
but this time by myself and in quiet peace.........
(written Jan 23, 1993 pm)