poetry has always been my secret and silent salvation
an avenue to take in which to alleviate the unapparent
pain
I was taught as a not so small child
to take life as it comes but in gentle moderation
and to never let matters of great importance be taken
lightly or in vain
Elvis seemed to have had it all
perhaps too much
yet still died before his life was really even through
fear has a way of creeping up on a body
when with one's supposed talent (s)he's not so certain
what (s)he should do
I have this vision that one day I'll become somebody
that I wouldn't recognize if she appeared before me
today
and it scares me even as it excites
the very idea is self fulfilling in its own
unexplained way
there's a memory I have that martyred itself for the
sake of the years to come
I recall everything yet nothing at all
which cancels out all else making me feel quite
inadequate at times yet more so
so very dumb
perhaps, that is why when I am losing I react to the loss
like I've just won
oh, what adventures there are in store for me that I have
yet to experience
isn't it wonderful
knowing they've only just begun.............
( written Jan 8,1993 pm)