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you know

you once said to me

and not so very long ago at all

"I WON'T LOSE YOU PERMANENTLY!

and my heart soared at

such an unguarded declaration

of yours

for it spoke so much

but

my soul keeps asking

where is your heart today

I have heard so much about your

thoughts and circumstances

as well as the thriving desire you

still seem to have for me

even just what it was that

kept you from me

four long months away

I feel even the renewed

nearness of your spirit

but little is revealed

only vague glittering shards

of what could be love in real

not just my own wishful willing

of it to be so

I've learned I was always in your

thoughts

never left your mind

and I've believed this for some time

but what about your strong beating heart

did I vacate its charity of chambers

you make me feel so much

I've lost you twice already

but maybe.....

if dare I even hope

I keep contemplating a most handsome idea

that maybe....just maybe......

I really never have

you return from the ashes

for me

like some glorious glittering jewel

stunning me in your appearance

yet it was I who felt your return

two days prior

which makes me ache to know

does that really mean anything

I grieved your exit from my life

like it was a death

yet thanked God most sweetly and

repeatedly

for the time that was allowed

to me to feel like

I was yours completely

even if only momentarily

in those moments I was whole

and I felt more lovely

than I ever remember being

and now I'm reeling

plunging into, I know not what

wanting so much of everything there can be

but only from you

yet fearing another void

thats yet to come

or fearing these very words of mine

might just scare you away

for me this is so much more than

physical chemistry or desire

its a wealth spring of energy

just who is magnet and who is steel here

what is right for us and when will

it all merge to be real

I don't think even you can say

but your own thoughts on the matter

keep me riveted to read

just what you think

or better yet

HOPE

will happen between us

I feel you

truly I do

and I trust your core intent

where I am concerned

I'm just not so certain

how well my heart will bounce back

if you take some unavoidable

(or worse yet) purposeful

leave of me again

but I do know

that one day for certain

I will die

yes, most assuredly

and beyond even my last breath taken

I'll still be loving you

as this is where my own

heart steps in and has her say

do with this what you want

for my own inner peace and

sanity these shadows that have

fallen upon my inner self

I just had to share them with you.........

(Jan.20,2008 1249am)