I question my sense
beyond the shuttles of a realm
racked with reason
reflection marks off spiritual expense
one gouged forsaken memory in rhyme
buried beneath the limping flaps of guess
a distinct pillage that floats on doubt
throughout such mind's most savage season
there is no such culprit as regret
in guilt's alley way of septic self
infliction
a tantrum worthy of
why, even the simplest pout
makes gun shy the stoutest heathen
yet
a terrible trade we each must make
salivating at such faded sensation
as Rubin himself would likely do today
in a diet camp
amongst so many robust sweet young
females
I busy my mind with a far baser bait
some finicky excuse can fast become
crucial reason to write
the issue itself you see steals a quill
from the coveted goose
for that of a mind far too willing to
channel all care
so to make misery gloat
'Le Pathetique Impaired'
becomes my phantom muse...............
(Jan. 21, 2000 1230 am)