I was taught by a master how to talk a good game
and that in some said circles sex is known by a much
naughtier name
a woman tends to give a lot more than she is able to get
and lets even more pass unharmed by her
than she is willing to admit
suffer in me so sweetly great lust for the one I know I
can not have any time soon
save me from these biting feelings that I nervously nurture
for they could very well become the catalyst to my eventual ruin
we each ( often unknowingly) leave our tender most feelings a
little farther behind us with each predictable and passing day
and those once so very black and white issues of floundering
morality fade into a soft fostered gray
excuse me while I reluctantly back down on a promise
I once so foolishly made
but one can not dance if the piper is never allowed to
be paid
it takes a lot out of one's spirit just to pin point
a feasible goal
while being firm yet vague and all the while knowing
just when to stop
takes a soft touched talent of verbal control
if grace were one of my many possessions
I would gladly access her willing aid
but she has yet to stand comfortably beside me
so from her I was determined to stray
as I walked
sweet desperation pleaded to me for her almost
criminal case
putting me at odds with all that is wrong within
by pulling me into her violent embrace
in the shape of a halfhearted hurry I'll exit this room
of unremarkable remedy
and leave you with shear doubt so uninspired that it
belittles all
even my own sanity...............
(written Oct 16,1992 am)