battle scars tip-toe up and down a heart that has all
too quickly grown cold
and not from the chill in the night's air my curious
friend but from the deep fear of growing old
in my most private thoughts upon a desperate medium I do
so feverishly try to hold
as if the very attempt of and in itself could somehow
bolster my flailing ego into confessing what needs to
be told
though no actual illness is consciously confessed
I'm certain what plagues me by at least one other person
has already been guessed
symbolic to that of say standing dead and naked before
the alive and dressed
I speak only now but in the rawest tones over matters
gone too long repressed
do you somehow follow my tainted trail of thought
thrown over thinking
and am I only to be saved just at the last moment as
I am surely sinking
and if this is indeed so I simply ask then please
give me just cause
to stop this embarrassing madness and disguise the
remainder of all my many flaws.........
( written April 4, 1993 )