if there really was such a thing as a knight in shining
armor
I think he would greatly resemble Bobby Rhymer
there is a slight smell of dampened disappointment in
the night's surrounding air
it is something of which I and I alone seem solely aware
there is another soul involved I believe but I don't
think he truly cares
this is a brutal fact for me to face
for when he looks at me he only blankly stares
and this 'Guilty Secret' I carry quietly within
with no one else do I share
for there is only so much generosity of spirit
that one individual has in her to spare
if he were to come forward and offer his unguarded
sympathy that I simply could not bare
I would rather take on his disdain and have him laugh
at me or swear
perhaps I would try to apologize for cornering the
lofty lion in his lair
and maybe even hope to be forgiven for placing
the turtle before the hare
but anymore than that I would not even dare
I don't mind being hopeful but first to myself I must
be fair
that is the only way I can get myself from here to there
by standing up for myself and protecting the gift I
have for flair................
( written July 28,1992 pm)