I feel a burst of exuberance flash into my meticulous
mind
putting me off even my food in search of what I have yet
to find
in my most desperate of dreams
there waits a creative, consummate lover of means
he knows just what to do and how to quiet the army
of inner screams
some of the deepest feelings flow beneath the
shallowest of streams
his hand so like a mallet touches so gently
my battered soul
his eyes some would call violent reflections of death
but to me they represent love the color of burning coal
picture pleasure and regret running parallel to each
other in some form of Olympic relay race
putting my heart strings partially out of place
big is the poet who can step passed her fear
and foolish pride
to play happy party girl for an hour or more
to cover up the pain that was previously applied
you know, contrary to the general public's popular
belief
time may very well heal all wounds but in its loath
some arms you often find no real immediate relief
I think I shall always remain in life and love with you
but I must ask if our positions were reversed
tell me just what you would do
make love to me like mad as I have endeavored and
done or give me rejection's size ten boot
or maybe even walk away with my wrung out little heart
if you must but let the points of fault and blame
die mythical yet moot............
( written July 11, 1992 pm)