the early morning's cold breath kisses my naked
unadorned face
as I step from the car and to the welcome able house
hurry my otherwise slow footed pace
where did they come from those threatening clouds
passing by over head
I wonder to myself as I look to the unforgiving heavens
with eyes tired, watery and rimmed rather red
the floods from the down pour will likely soon come
and carry me back to my work place with a guided force
that could cripple some
but I'm not like others I am more like the wind
when I blow through the trees they don't break
they bend
I fixate on the duties I have left that have yet been
done
I try not to but always end up back at square one
love is not love when its not permitted to be fully
felt nor fun
though this round of raw romance is far from over
I feel like I've won
but my secret soul still asks why?
because truth is in the ability to try
no one but GOD chooses or decides when and who is to
die
the mayor of the moment is the choice of a lie
and I'm left with a feeling of self distance that I
cannot deny
of this earth from it I wish to soon fly
without his love my crimes grow silent in their foolish
cries
for from me, this earth his unfaltering love facelessly
flies
as he leaves, from my face falls my precarious disguise
and the rains wash my undirtied pain as they break away
from the predictable skies...........
(written July 7, 1992 pm)