across the rivers of my most recently maddened mind
stands the locked gate to reason
a place I long ago left far, far behind
the regaining of trust makes my slim writer's hand
ever so slightly shake
but I now know that it writes for me and not just my
stumbling inadequacies' sake
is this thirst the only real reason that I burn my creativity
clean down to the wick
or is my hunger merely getting back at me by shaking
frustration in my face like a stick
so much has followed me down this dwindling path before
that leads me mentally to a padded room
yet when I dare to venture from such set course
many point their accusing fingers and incorrectly
assume
my ears constantly ring in my head
with their nasty accusations so candid that they are
cold
I truly feel that these fiends would purchase my very
spirit if it indeed could be sold
and on me they seem to have some strange yet
unexplainable hold
like the turn of the century minors in their lust for what
conservatives called 'fool's gold'
the answers must lay closer within my immediate reach
than I would soon likely think
otherwise, why else would I be so brave as to this
level of question bother to sink...............
( written June 1,1992 am)