my soul erupts into a scarring scream of damaged
silence
as my vision voyages into choppy waters of abandoned
violence
very little is forgiven beyond the daggers of formal
embark meant of attitude
pardon me if this canvas I've painted for you feels
creatively crude
I care not that my feet dirty the door mat leading
to death's darkened door
for every visual blow taken along the way
counteracts what is seen as an act of private war
maybe I just don't belong to this said place
anymore
and if I don't
maybe I'll sail off the edge of detachment and into
'The Lap Of Gentled Rapport'
to leave me feeling not quite so frighteningly
negative
but instead filling me with the hope that through
this abomination I just may live............
(written May 24,1992 am)