I must be blessed to be so depressed
after all, where would we be without our dismantled
memories
so little of what's yet to come has my soul even
remotely guessed
so much will be handed over so to appease
every even simple sadness deserves its own private
hour
just as every seed aspires to bloom into a breathtaking
flower
at each sharp turn in my quiet and cool remorse
I come down hard upon my numbered weakness with
near inhumane force
still, a long since dying hope manages to take yet another
even painful breath
defying the grimmest reality by slipping by another
prone body of unrequited death
demanding loud and strong that my foolish eyes open
up wide to the truth
it almost eagerly informs me that everything was not lost
long after my youth
if love had a physical face just whom or what would it most
likely resemble
an unconditional mother standing over a for thought
or a hole infested blood filled thimble
some things in this life are unnecessary to fix or
infinitely assemble
yet, why when I daringly delve into such deep pools
of ponder do my hands quite noticeably tremble
since I can no longer with this bruised and troubled
truth pretend to continue
I'll leave the outcome of the yet to be known
answers entirely up to you...........
( written July 1, 1992 am)