In my awkward way I softly say I love you
but with my intent eyes I sadly say we're through
each hour of every passing day
I fight myself in utter dry dismay
which is not really the decided issue
what it all comes down to is what I should
and shouldn't do
forget the bitter memories of our juggled pasts
and move on unencumbered to some thing vital and excitingly new
for you can't beat nor breathe life back into a long since dead horse
like you can't alter the road in the middle of any even unexpected course
what would our faults feel like if literal love were
indeed the source
with my shoulder shouldered gently to the door I push
myself out of lust's lifeless way with all my
reluctant force...........
( written May 9,1992 am)