like the wailing of a wayward wife
or the cut received by the stabbing from the dullest
knife
its the cold yet empty feeling of embittered betrayal
that murders the unwanted in life
making death a ready option that's open and hoping
for a sale
my truest for to this living life consists of tiny
pieces of paper with indecipherable scribbles upon
them
mere thoughts that wish not to be forgotten so they
are cast to the feet and mercy of the page should
the mind close or grow dim
I've been writing to this date in moderated quantities
of richly intense volume
under even the most heated conditions of the mind
I struggle with the pen to remain careful and calm
I repeat to my sullen self over and over again
magical words to quiet the deafening sound
the sound of my fragile soul falling only to shatter
upon a dark and indifferent ground
after so much hard work I can not lose my indeed
true self
nor can I allow my deepest feelings through these
poems to merely lay and collect dust upon a forgotten
shelf
I will continue to pour my pensive thoughts upon these
welcoming pages until the day I expire
and I'll never willingly abandon these feelings for
a seat among the clouds nor for a walk through the
forthcoming fire.................
(written April 27,1992 am)