at the waist in front of me he has slowly started
stripping
now know that I wouldn't mind having that fine specimen
of maleness over my bed post tripping
fantasies as we all know can only go so far
then we are forced to stop ourselves short
left only wishing painfully upon a lonely star
such a bleeding little weak heart I have trapped in my
tight cage like little chest
yet, so far to this very fact I believe no one has ever
chanced a guess
I am fairly determined to keep my said self sane
for all the outward abuse it has taken
I still have full access to the brilliance of this
brain
one can gain great value from experimental mortification
perhaps from such maddened thoughts I should intend
to take an extended vacation
but just to back up such vicious little thoughts
I take all points in favor of my advantage and turn
them into faults
well, all is quiet now for the puppy softly sleeps
and an ending to the perfect idea comes to only
(s)he who reaps.............
( written April 26,1992 pm)