wisdom is born unto rejection and pain
and in every even bottomed out loss
there still is a little promise for possible gain
yet there will always be someone who will argue and
question if I am really sane
its only when such inquiries on me are turned that I
raise hell and holy cane
without any regard to preference or prose
a brilliant idea dawns in my head
moves into the heart where there it grows
only in such grand poetry inspired by the promise of
pain
am I able to witness the opening of the sheltering skies
and not help but wonder who will witness and rule
the law of the rain
maybe I am indeed a fool for letting you see myself as
I fall apart within my own skin
but so much pressure can find its release through
the guided ink of this proposed pen
I will not permit this train of brutal thought to
wreck and subsequently end
nor to the drasticness of my own deadly desires
themselves to you I'll no longer endeavor to defend
in these none too winning words
there is no desperate message to send
nor ever again over any of my own decisions
will I let myself be forced to bend...........
(written April 26,1992 pm)