we are fading like emptiness
I can feel the nothing creeping in and out of your
words
and it hurts some as words were all we ever really
had
and slowly you are taking even them away
I guess you can't help the distance
that builds itself up higher and higher between us
I am not free I have no right to hurt
about anything you do
and yet my heart feels raw
you say you are not backing away
but I feel the broadening of that distance
emotional distance that is
I used to feel so close to you
now I feel like an afterthought
or perhaps a crutch
or maybe a bit more sweetly than all that
perhaps a minor distraction
I have no right at all to say this
but sometimes I wish I meant a hell of a lot
more to you
there, I said it
now I can go have a good cry and feel better for
having been as honest as I can
standing knee deep in this loss
as I am
and sadly so heart sore.............
( written Sept 14, 2006 4am)