there's this terrific anger deep within my being that
fights to escape
I recognize it not by vengeful voice but by its
subtle sloping shape
upon my cornered conscience clarity does not seem
to glare at me anymore or openly gape
but these feelings of something being amiss
attaches themselves to me like cheap adhesive
Christmas tape
and taunts me with an abrupt death like thump
leaving in my parched throat a large fearful self
defeating lump
making me wonder who in this game of all games is
the chosen chump
my worrying over such complete and utter silliness
projects me to be quite the foolish frump
that's when humor comes into play
it incites my mouth to take up full use of its
verbal wit display
when the mind fears for its very intelligence
it chooses to hide behind my less than lovely scrawls
seeking out I know not what but perfecting itself
of all its previous flaws
the power in knowing one can succeed where most can't
diminishes the desire to do so
should this handed out concept ever decide to turn
itself on me
you can bet I'll let you know...............
( written April 5,1992 am)