when he came in tonight
all breath left my body
and I nearly fainted
all I could think
was if I were an artist
his face couldn't have been made more perfect
If I myself had had it painted
there's no need to trouble your soul over me
for I've been to the circus before and seen the
grand finale'
at the end of the show
its always better to leave them laughing
even with a slightly broken heart
than with nothing at all before you go
but looking closely now into the lovely blue tinted
mirrors of his still so pure soul
makes me wonder if that really is so
love on the jagged rocks gets pounded repeatedly
by much too many misunderstanding waves
no one has yet found true reasons why misunderstanding
towards such obviously injured love so badly behaves
to each particular party involved I wonder if this very
same thought they think
or do they already know
I feel that without all the pleasurable possibilities
and pain found in uncovered heartache
one can never fully as a person expect to grow
there is so much love and life left in me to further
fathom and explore
with so many opportunities over flowing from my
tightly clenched fists I find its harder to swim
my mind and heart to the safety of the shore
five experience filled years becomes shorter in gap
as the months burn slowly by
making me more and more realize that the boy I once
so carefully eyed has grown to be quite an astute
and handsome guy
so much in him still seems to reach out to so much
in me
take with you my shoes
slip them on then I think you too would read my heart
the same right down to its ending T
'Beautiful Male' was one of the first few but I do
indeed doubt that this will be the last
he has stole up on my sweet unsuspecting heart
too quietly and strong to resurrect any bitter feelings
of our recent past
we have something genuine here he has so much left to give
and still more to conquer within
with a mind that's so focused and clear
maybe this throwing of these two well matched minds together
won't make us an ideal couple but possibly
a more compatible pair
now that forms a certain hope in my misaligned
mind that we may just be getting our hearts together
someway somewhere...................
(written April 2, 1992 am)